Despair

Emoing

2009-09-07T19:25:00.000+08:00

When u probe THE QUESTION, u must be prepared for the worst.

Theorem 1.1
The consequence of the QUESTION lies within the cosets of R, where R=results.

Proof:
R+w=winning coset
R+c=where c can be any crap not to accept coset
R+l=where l is any element that can cause losing of frens

all this cosets formed the subspace of the consequence of QUESTION with probability 1.
(Proved)

relatively, P(R+c + R+l) >0.5, and for 1st timers, P(R+w)->0 as n is small in general, it does not assume normality.

Since the situation is restricted to this EXTENT, and so EXTREME, I feel that the judgement has already been passed. Need to say until so extreme ma? I feel that if effort has not been put in, there's no gain. However, all i felt is disgrace and humilation.

What's worse than this? All i can say now is, well done for making my decision so firm.

Thanks to the NS-life i've been through, i can finally adhere to its core values.

Swift and Decisive.

2009-08-20T18:48:00.000+08:00

Today is someone's bday.. Dunno whether I shld wish her happy bday or not.. Nonetheless, i will post here. If u see it, u have my blessings.. if not, consider I never said anything..

Reluctancy..
Coldness..
Intoxified with feelings..

Happy Bday to u :)

2009-08-14T23:55:00.003+08:00

When suppress is the word to use, i feel confused, mystrified

Mixed feelings collated around

I really missed X, even when we see almost everyday. Its a torture really.

The times spent together, the laughter.. It shldnt sound so academic.. I wish it could turn into some other topic, but it often ends up in modules talk.

Rainie's quote: the beautiful things u see now are as vulnerable as a bubble. Poke it and experience pain.

but if i nv poke it, i will suffocate.. seriously whats worse than waiting.. but is it too fast a decision?

Call me a coward i dun care, but i just wanna maintain this, if not for long, at least for now..

Frustrated
Frustrated
Frustrated!!

2009-07-11T22:05:00.002+08:00

10/07/09
Was a Bad day at popular.. but in the night, me, zm and kh went to JP. Talked a bit, then went to starbucks.. got a brand new Calvin klein wallet.. Woot.. Very long never receive present already.. so was quite excited though.. aft that went to kh house to rest for the night.

11/07/09
Was a wonderful day overall. Wake up at 7 to go home to sleep as kh had to go for work.. Wake up at 11, everything settle and meet rainie, wk and james at Dhoby.. Went to Juz Acia for lunch.. didnt had much icecream as i was still quite sick.

After that, we talk along the lunch , and they presented me with my 2nd present.. A "MR NONSENSE"(thx arh) T-Shirt from new urban male.. and they forced me to wore it lor.. lol

Then went to see movie "ICE AGE 3" Was a hilarious movie, as children mimic the sounds of the characters of the show. Then we went to see the new Orchard Central..

Was quite big, but very little shop as it was still new..(guessed so), so we didnt had much to see actually. None the less, i tooked a photo with the coffee bean mascot (Rainie where's the photo)

Though i didnt eat, we went to Xin Wang cafe to have their dinner.. As i had a Dinner Gathering later in the evening, i jus drank its Teh, which was not bad.. After the dinner, James went home himself, and me, rainie and wk went on the North-South route.

Dinner time, met my parents at home,( got scolded for late) then went to 163 for dinner.. ordered sweet pork ribs, tofu, crispy chicken and fishball soup and lastly not forgetting Prawns ( Nai You Xia). Dinner was excellent, though i was still quite full from the teh..

Went home after the dinner, and had another surprise.. A Birthday cake.. Woot.. Long time never had my own Bday cake already. Overall enjoyed myself throughly today.. How i wish everyday was my bday xD

Shall sign off here as im eating my cake. xD 11/07/10 pls come fast xP

2009-07-05T00:10:00.003+08:00

Im back aft so long.. Today blog again cos went out with Wk, James and Robin.

Went to the games expo, and saw quite a lot of new games tt were out on launch, as well as old games..

Competition was intense on the dota gaming, but i still tink tt the australians hav no sense of sportsmanship.
Lose le jiu quit ><

Anw Robin was sick, so he went home early.. We went to Marina Sq 's Seoul Garden at 1st, but it was fully booked.. and There was a group of staff at the table tt couldnt do a thing and the manager had to come out to settle a group of 10 ppl. Which was totally ridiculous.. MSQ u need to buck up man..

So went to Ngee Ann City.. Ate a lot at 1st, but since i cant eat mutton nor beef, i had to resort to chicken , chicken and more chicken.. which was nauseating aft a while.. so i ate kuehs and ice creams.. Eventually finished with a trade mark ice kachang but was disappointed as i couldnt finish it.. Hope to have another outing fast..

2009-06-13T01:31:00.002+08:00

Im back aft so long, and aft so many days of work, im finally able to find time down to write.

Time passes so fast, my ankle's got injured n healed again.. and tml's the DREADED IPPT. Dont really know whether im going to pass, but highly doubt so given the condition of my ankle..

ANW, Went out with Weikeong, James , JJ, Rainie, and Robin(new friend) today.. Initially the plan was go to the IT show with WK, James n rainie but somehow, JJ and robin joined in. Weikeong was late for 1.5 HRS.. (dont he deserve to b punished?)

Went to the IT show and i bought a mouse, with 7 colour changing ability(WOW), oh well, it was jus cause i needed a new mouse..

Ate desert at bugis, though wasnt really tt nice, but we played BANG!, a new game introed by Weikeong.. Was really fun due to rainie's clumsiness as to being unable to detect the vice and Renegade.

Went Dinner at Shokobu(or wtvr is it i cant spell). and of cos, our little game of BANG! continued there..

James learned the game fast, though im slow learner, i nv kill the wrong person :)

come to look at the date, its june 12 already.. so fast, and im getting my 2nd pay.. (though not a lot, but needed the amount to save me from my debts =S)

and of cos, at night we went to esplanade to chill for an hr b4 we left for home sweet home..

Cant wait for monday to arrive for our gathering again.. xD

2009-05-24T01:03:00.003+08:00

22/05/09

THE DAY I RECEIVED MY NEW X1. woohoo.. finally i have got to feel it on my hands.. which belongs to me and only me!

23/05/09

Was retarded enough to actually not restart the modem cos the wireless strength was too low..
Was retarded enough to actually not plug the whole earpiece in and thought tt it was spoilt
Was retarded enough to forget to synchronise my phone AND thought the touch screen was CUI
when it was actually perfectly sensitive

Above are the great deeds i did while i thought i was smart in the aspects of Xperia. was jus too new for newbie me.. mayb this phone a bit too high tech for me eh..

Anyway after work so many days i still have not got my pay, but overall my head is much nicer to me now as i know more n more things.. Means less scolding.. which was great..

Today i talked on the P.A system on JE popular.. NV ever would hav thought tt a part timer also have to be involved in this sorta nonsense.. Though was terrified, the experience was like a life broadcast, with many customers just outside the office.. I would actually say its a once off experience..

Signing off here with my X1 on hand.. pardon me for my nagginess.. im jus so in love with it.

2009-05-21T00:57:00.002+08:00

Finally i got time to blog again.. its been days ever since i started my work..

Nobody i dislike except the admin who always pick on me.. for no apparent reason also.. though my head likes to grumble a lot, she's still overall nicer than the admin..

Since when admin has rights over the sales floor -.- even if i talk also shld b my head come scold me ma ><

Any way, must start to say.. and very happy to say, that my Xperia is finally arriving in less than 10 days.. cant wait for my pay day to come..

Hopefully my pay is enough to buy my phone without using too much of my savings=S

Happy again cos my wiz is finally lv 50 ( thank god..)

Overall quite a happy day.. Xperia here i come~

2009-05-09T20:31:00.002+08:00

went pool today with JX, KH and YW. finally aft 3 days of work can get 1 day of rest.. counting down to my Xperia.. 26 days left.. haiz.. this mth got to spend an extra $200 le.. food and transport getting more n more ex each day.

wishing tt i can pass my IPPT in the upcoming june 13. i dun wan RT wor..
RT is another 8 weeks go back army so sian.. Y army must make us take IPPT every year.. of cos body will deteoriate what...

then some more july got what manning.. waste of my time only zz..

Tml at stationary le.. hopefully it will be more relaxed... i dun wan so many customer asking me where is the pencil department.. ><

2009-05-06T22:27:00.002+08:00

Was amazed at how popular internal was actually like.. omg.. so fierce seh.. stand whole day.. but was quite fun as a cashier.. my dream finally come true.. woohoo

i tot i gave the wrong change of 60c extra, in the end i top up liao, realise got extra 60c
make me sian 1/2..

Overall quite enjoyable.. though 3 more days of cashier only then i'll b in stationary T.T

Lets hope my Xperia will come soon.. counting down 30 days xD

2009-04-19T23:28:00.002+08:00

I realised whenever i started blogging, there are bound to b idiots who exist, even in the midst of the night where it is almost 11pm.

Shall not talk bout it.. quiet day, studying ma1104.. finally grasp a bit of it after reading and reading and READING.

Got psed... so sian.. i hate being psed..

6 more days to 1st paper.. omg.. pls save me..

2009-04-18T23:38:00.007+08:00

Really had nth much to do, so blogging came to my mind after like 4 mths

Went studying with James and WeiKeong today at the Science library.

Was so glad that i managed to finish my ST1131 cheatsheet. Still got MA1104 to do.. so sian..

when is all this nonsense ever ending?

Going to start some Nonsense again.. so for those who don't like nonsense u can skip tis part.

Theorem 1.1

letP(XY)<1

Then P(J)=J for some J such that P(XY)=1-J

Prove: Suppose on the contrary that P(P) not = J, then P(P)=0, it implies P(XY)=1 which is never true.. Hence there must Exist a J such that P(P)=J

Haha.. Those who follow me closely shld know what i am talking bout. Somebody do my MA1104 cheatsheet for me plox..

2008-12-06T22:06:00.003+08:00

I've Changed my blog link in order once more to escape from the clutches of the retarded.

Here's what happened in terms of smses:

R:Where did u see him?
Me:huh? send wrong sms?
R:No. Dun act la.. i know its u.. Why u come to disturb my life? Why must u do tis? FK off from my life
Me:i didnt do it.. dun anyhow accuse me, go check the IP address of the sender.. i nv even go ur blog.
R:U tink i believe? Pls la.. dun forget what i study.. I checked and its u.. Jus fk off from my life..
Me:i told u i didnt once more, and pls, for god sake look at ur face? who would wan to bother bout whether u have ur boy friend and whether he holds a girl's hand or is gay?
R:U look so ugly like a bastard(i didnt know bastards must be ugly), give me i also dun wan wor.. go pee and look at urself.. U ugly shit blah blah.. dun like me why still have my link in ur blog? delete la

To R:if u tink i like u just cos i have ur blog add in my blog, then pls again, u msged me didnt u? so u had my handphone no.. Tis implies that u carry a torch for me for 2354756876 Yrs..
and if u gonna tink i m going to insult u again, no.. hell no..
i shall not drop my intelligence level as to of urs, and as long as u leave me alone i will.
Once again, many guys left u just proved they made the correct choice. :)
Peace out.

2008-12-05T11:53:00.002+08:00

woohoo.. Its the start of the holidays.. Everyday sleeping at 3am and waking at 11-12 sure feels great.. games all day long and no worries of HW..

viwawa Dynasty chess promoted to lv 12 officially xD

Wonder why when some ppl wins u in games they must behave like a snob?
It muz b due to 1 of the following reasons:

1.His/her maturity is not to ur lvl
2.Ur Mentality is too easily shaken by the enemy

so moral of the story is , do not get angry with the other person.

Wonder why some ppl are so kiasu.. Now only start sem 1 holiday nia, everyday pester me to download the sem 2 notes for u for what.. sometimes it gets sick when u keep asking.. i said i will means i will giv it to u sometime.. Fan xing yi xia pls...

Misses her.................

2008-11-30T22:21:00.002+08:00

2 more day to the final paper.. Introduction to Chinese language -.- Intro my foot ar.. so hard lor..

Guys and girls pls comment.. Is it true that Gd guys arent valued anymore? Is it true that guys muz b bad then only girls will take a fancy on him? Tis statement is bearing me down le.. Where has the saying " gd guys muz b treasured" gone?

When its so obvious that the other party has rejected, shld he give up? or shld he persist and risk being called "dun wan face, thick skinned?"

A lot is running through the mind, as the mind is clouded by darkness, Evil thoughts swarm the holy mind, tainting it dirty and unseenable.

Holyness isnt in the world today, and human's weakness still prevail..

1.Greed
2.Xi Xin Yan Jiu

2008-11-27T11:27:00.002+08:00

Sry everyone wait for my post.. so long never post due to the Fking exams..

Anyway, 1 more module left to go, and its at dec 2.. so long.. fk it.. im gonna play play play till i song 1st..

1st things 1st.. Is there a need to be so jue even after a brkup? Staying in contact doesnt hurt i believe, When i NEVER contact u 1st.. so whats up with that "shld move on whatsoever?"

2nd, Dun bu li wo.. i'll b sad de.. U know who u r.. :)

3rd, Seeing U after so long makes the wait worthwhile..

4th, i miss U..

5th, all of the above are predicates lolx

2008-11-21T11:38:00.002+08:00

Tml is the start of all hell.. exam stress is bearing me down.. omg.. someone save me pls...
How exactly heavy is a star, in the heaven? more known as a planet..?
If i could carry tt alone, i would probably carry it for u...
gambatte to myself tml exam.. calculus.. hope not too much integration pls...

2008-11-16T21:59:00.003+08:00

Today finally got things to blog abt..

Went to attend my xiao jiu's wedding.. the bride was chio lor.. hope my bride to be will be as chio also.. wake up at 6.00 when i slept at 3 omg.. totally tired out.. then we sat on the car to go fetch the bride.. At the bride's hse still muz ask me xiao jiu to sing or what then can go in.. then ask for hong bao.. hope my frens dun like tt treat me ar, even though my singing rocks! xP

Then still got a lot of custom like bride muz use umbrella cover her b4 she come into our hse..
Then send her by car to my grandma hse.. I open the car door and got a BIG hongbao xP.. Feelin rich eh? then got the drink tea ceremony and respect elders.. today got quite a big sum wor.. $106 for doing nth. lolx

Then aft the tea ceremony got a buffet lunch.. quite feng fu ok.. got fishballs, ngoh hiang, Jelly, veg(cauliflower i tink) Curry chicken, chicken wing, pork cutlet, cereal prawns, Satay... Drinks.. omg! retink also shiok... The event was a total success.. but i slept at ard 4pm due to tiredness wake up at 7 continue buffet lol.. Girls. admire me pls for my JIAN MEI DE SHEN CAI. xP

Next time my wedding muz be more long zhong than tis.. Muz giv her the best o.. but still no partner yet wor.. am i tinking too much?

2008-11-12T00:57:00.003+08:00

Nth much to blog abt, except today really did very few studying.. playing viwawa and Gate to Heavens all day long -.-

2 weeks is already very long, still muz wait 3 weeks till i can go out play T.T

A girl asked her guy if he thought she was pretty.
He said....NO.
She asked him is he would want to be with her forever...
and he said No.
So then she asked him if she were to leave would he cry, and once again he replied with a NO. She had heard enough. with tears in her eyes she turned to leave, but he grabbed her arm and said....
You're not pretty your Beautiful.
I dont WANT to be with you forever
I NEED to be with you forever!!!
And I wouldnt cry if you walked away... I will die....

2008-11-10T11:26:00.003+08:00

Nth much to blog, except that today is study day.. mugging starts TODAY.

Here's a quiz..

Write 10 things about urself and pass it on to other ppl

Lim Jia Hui is my name, Jerry is a nick given by frens.
Im Sweet 21 xP(old liao) Bday is 11th July 1987(hint)
Schling in NUS-Fac of Sci-Pure maths major
Friendly n cute xP(i noe a lot of ppl will puke LMAO)
Am a gd listening ear
Fav colour purple, blue, black WITH white
Drinks : Honey dew Green tea, Lychee Ice blended, Champagne grape ice blended
Food: sweet stuff like cakes, chocolates etc, fried eggs
Hates: liars and dishonest ppl, ppl who PS for no apparent reason
My attitude those who know me well will know xD

I'll pass it to
Huimin
Xiuhui
April
Wenyan
Eugene
Josephine
Yong En
ShiRui
Huiwen
PeiYing

91x

2008-11-08T12:43:00.003+08:00

Ytd went to Hm's hse for gym, though i nv used the facilities at all xP.. bah im jus too lazy.. freaking exams are jus around the corner..

Met Shirui, Huimin at NP ard 4.30 then took a long ride on the bus.. It was freaking a long ride..

Then went to eat nasi lemak, cut my hair.. not very nice anyway.. who ask my hair got a circle base -.-

Then Shirui, Huimin,Xiuhui went eat at kopitiam while i stop to see them eat.. bah.. ytd my meals werent constant, on the way home, still feel terribly hungry..

Juz acia on wed was a fun outing, i did do some work alright.. AT least, i finished half of the assignment. Feel wasted though, cos nv spam their icecream.. Did a IQ test and got 97 out of the high IQ range which was supposed to b 124.. Try it out.. google for high IQ society and u will see.. tell me if im stupid T.T.. even my TU ER got 116, (with help though) xP

Closeness was 1 of the expected arguments, more topics etc.. but actually whats e situation i dont really know.. girl's heart are like seabed needles i guess xD

Will I get the chance?

2008-11-05T00:37:00.002+08:00

Today lots of thoughts went through my mind...

Happy things 1st.. i got my cashcard.. and my Fav Tablet board for my lappy... can write on my lappy le^^

Do finish assignment.. Shld go to Juz acia as planned tml to meet ShiRui, Huimin and Xiuhui.

Things to ponder about.. if She knows, What happens? And tt implies? And so? eventually?

If she does not know, Is it any better?

Now tt he loses the battle, Shld HE strike? or Shld HE wait for She to forget he?

jiu ming a~

2008-11-02T22:41:00.002+08:00

Exams are coming pretty soon.. many can b seen mugging, doing other stuff.. but exactly what am i doing?

I can b seen online playing, msning, watching tv.. doing nth..

But not study.. even homework, sometimes, im jus too lazy to do it.. Could it be that i hav to start working on my studies now b4 its too late? hmm.. always seems to hav not enough sleep.. yawns..

Definition 3.25

What is love?

LOVE is defined as 1 of an emotional feeling of liking someone where by care and share is a necessity , but selfishness is not excluded.. In expression we have,

Love = [2(selfishness)+3(thoughts about him/her)+3(care and share)]/stress , where stress can never = 0

What is Hate(in terms of love)?

Hate is defined as an emotional feeling whereby as the limit of love tends to infinity, stress tends to infinity too, hence, care and share is reduced greatly.

In expression we have,

Hate= Love^2, when love tends to 100 and above.. else, Hate =0

=> Hate = {[2(selfishness)+3 (thoughts abt him/her)+3(care and share)]/stress}^2

Do not hav too much love, or shld i say do not tink too much..

Stress is an impt factor.. hence to maximise love and reduce stress, a diophantine eqn is set up such that

let love = 100

100=(Thoughts/stress)*x+(care and share/stress)*y where x and y are integers.

Care to solve for a maximum x and y, where x and y are non negative and stress not =0?

Is it possible btw me n her?

2008-11-01T00:19:00.002+08:00

Hi all.. Got a lot of nonsense to blog about.

1st.. I muz say fermat is a really intelligent person..

He states that 2^n+1 is a fermat's prime number for any integer n, but seriously, its only true for n=0,1,2,3,and 4. How clever can that be?

2nd.. Largest known prime number is 2^43112609-1, contains more than 12 million numbers.. isnt tt amazing? And it was discovered on aug 2008

Today got to know so many facts, and i hav FINALLY packed my bag.. Thx to huimin who helped the most..

Taught Huimin, XiuHui how to play Chinese Chess, and they taught me how to play STRESS.

Its a fun card game.. Will elaborate someday..

A puzzle for your.. If there's 3 white man and 3 black man on a side of a river, and you are supposed to move them all over to the other side. ON BOTH SIDES, no amount of black man can b more than the whites. All u hav as transport is a Boat who can contain 2 person. and, muz drive the boat back in order to fetch another batch. Anyone who can solve, msg me xD

2008-10-29T23:59:00.002+08:00

Today went ShiRui's Hse with Huimin and XiuHui again. Saw them do home work, and played mahjong(not Wahjong) with auntie, Xiuhui and Huimin. Only see Shirui bz doing Hw.. Still dun wan do then muz do 3 times liao o~

Ate some cheap stuff today.. apparently Dynasty Chess seems to get easy to stuck in a match, irritates the hell out of me -.-

Huimin Sry for whatever tt causes ur bad mood~ i can see lian se de ok xD..

The 2 of ur stop trying to hint(you know who i am saying)

Tml's homework still haven settle how a?

Morale of the story is, get your homework done b4 anything else, if not, u will end up not enjoying the outing xP

2008-10-28T18:34:00.002+08:00

Today learnt a new theory..

Fundamental theorem of Theory:

A Theory which is true and obvious is one which actually requires the most scrutiny.

Nth much happened pretty tis few days, went out on sunday and monday. Sunday to Ice cream buffet at Juz acia again, and monday to ShiRui's Hse. Taught them Chinese chess and we went to play badminton. Overall was quite happy, though the outing was simple.

Huimin PS!!!! Next time muz punish by treat us lunch xP

Will hav lots of homework to do tonight.. still lazy to start doing now o.0

Calculus.. Linear Algebra... MA1100~~

Had a headache today.. hopefully will b better later on.

Will i get a chance? Does she know about it?

2008-10-26T01:29:00.002+08:00

Today do hw whole day.. bored..

Shall talk bout Viwawa. Viwawa has too many noobs n snobs in the dynasty chess region.. take for example SG9. He tinks he's a pro and tink tt lv 7 is not gd enough to fight him.. i own him any day man.. viewed his match and he wasnt tt pro at all..

Number theory was easy to do but calculus was way too hard.. tink i might need consultation soon..

Bored... Was happy enough tt i can teach a student Xiu Hui in her rubiks cube.. though i wasnt tt gd a teacher.. got a lecturer grade ba xP

2008-10-22T23:19:00.002+08:00

Today will hav quite a long post.

First of all, any body got a cinema job to intro? As in the receptionist or counter, Location preferable at Ang mo kio, Any company is ok, I.E Engwah, Cathay, GV. If u hav, pls contact me asap. Thanks a lot.

2ndly, I finally LEARNT rubik cube 3x3. xD Very happy cos i can finally make a 6 sided cube instead of only the first layer. Today got a china sales girl ask me how to solve n i dunno.. so ps lor. Thks to my teacher, Huimin Sinsei xD PS:ur chocolates i treat u liao dun say i not gd.. u noe what to do next huh xP

3rdly, Thx to ShiRui for buying the Conversational Jap book for me, Next coming up in the holidays U will teach me how to speak n write Japanese xD

Morning wake up at 9.15 (wtfox no sch) then do my linear algebra and chinese assignment.. still got relations Hw -.- Injection, Surjection, Bijection -.-
After an injection, we will supposedly get a surjection and lastly, we will become Bi s cos of the Bijection effect. -.-

Next up went to meet fren to pass him the items needed, then went to meet ShiRui and Huimin for Ajisen Ramen. Ate a Chashu Ramen + ala carte meat ball stick(wasnt tt nice) Shared with Huimin the fried Tofu(nicer one)

Huimin was "CONSIDERED" quite patient with me as i wasnt really very progressive in the rubik cube, keep making the same mistakes xP

In the end went to Mac for them to complete their homework while i digest myself with the rubik cube.

Just reach home at tis kinda time, and here i am blogging n eating at the same time.

Was a fun day nonetheless.

2008-10-20T14:50:00.002+08:00

2 Days nv blog le.. Tired n stressed.. and YTD jus got psed again. psed + IS= PISSED where IS = ignorance+stand-up

Shall blog about PS-ing.

What is PS?

Definition 1.4.1 PS is defined to be A act of Un-courtesy whereby after arranging an appointment, u forgo the appointment by
1.giving some lame excuses
2. Worse, not even giving any.

So by the law of nature, humans get naturally pissed.., especially when u hav forgo the appointment once, and after making another appointment, u forgo the appointment AGAIN.

Tis is the worse, and hence, shall not be forgiven..

Unless U are absolutely sure that u have no further appointments that day, or not feeling tired, then u will tell me u are free and wanted to go out. Thanks a lot, my sunday is wasted.

Not Tired and want to go out and FREE---> u can try to ask me out.

2008-10-17T22:03:00.002+08:00

Today got back my MA1100.. wasnt too happy bout it, or rather, i expected a higher output.
26/40+2 isnt what i wanted..
Today got a bit sore throat, so if im not tt nice today ps lor
Its weekend again, but i aint looking forward to sat at all... mayb there's too much HW to do, or mayb im jus lifeless lol

Heart of desire,
What u wanna b, often more than not, u turned out something which is not even 1/2 of urself
Ur actions, choices, are all often determined by how the world goes.
As the world spins, ur action spins periodically too.
Sometimes, actions mayb regretted, but is it worthed it?
Living inside a 3D space, where we shall call it R3.

What is changed in most humans?

love life
money
things we do or say
mindset

What lies in the subspace of R3?

The zero subspace (Air,Hate,Love)

All Lines that passes through the origin (Frens, Neighbours, colleagues)

All planes that passes through the origin( Ur basis: house, water, food)

The entire R3(the whole universe)

can we live without the 1st, 2nd, 3rd or 4th? i dun tink so... If someone can prove we can live without these things, tell me xD

2008-10-16T20:50:00.002+08:00

Got back my Linear algebra today.. 27/50 a poor score T.T but the mean was 25.09 so still not tt bad.
Tml will b the day, MA1100 and MA1102 together, the 2 most unconfident paper -.-
Save me someone.. Receive the paper for me and tell me its 70% LMAO!
Went sch today, and my orthogonal assignment was still quite gd, at least i got 80% correct.
WootS.
Give me an idea what shall i eat tml, cos i am sick of Science canteen omg..
Shall i go out on saturday? If go out i dun wan eat suki -.- dun like sushi..
Today i shall get lv 70 on my TSS.. PREMS ftw!

Blog till here, Stay channeled.

2008-10-15T16:47:00.002+08:00

Ytd too tired nv blog. went to Shi Rui's hse tgt with Huimin, Xiuhui.
Played Uno and Big 2. Ownage ! Then went to eat Hokkien mee. Was nice ok, $3 and got 4 prawns woots. Some more the prawn (xu) already removed for us le.

Aft that the girls played private maple and i went to play GTH. viwawa. Chess was alright but Wahjong failed me T.T no mo qi btw Huimin cos i was her Shang Jia, She cant feed me LMAO.
So i was the failure xP

Anyway today wake at 1pm while i set the alarm at 10
Changed to 1030, 11, 1130, 1145, 12, 1230, 1245, 1300. Finally i She de wake up at 1pm.

Once again i stress, the tag has nth to do wid me xP..

Do homework and homework~~ Until i wan to become orthogonal with the table liao.

Definition 1.3 Orthogonality

A pair of vectors is said to be orthogonal if their dot products is 0. i.e perpendicular -.-

At night i continue to blog xP

2008-10-13T23:37:00.001+08:00

Try it.. xP

Your view on yourself:You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

2008-10-12T22:35:00.002+08:00

Today went out wid Huimin, Shi Rui, Xiu Hui and Eugene to Cine.
Shirui wanted to eat raw salmon, so we went to suki Sushi to eat.
Ordered a kani maki and a drink, and tt costed $7.. T.T
Later on went to kia kia..
Then Huimin say wanted to go arcade so we went to dhoby ZoneX
Wa... There's a guy there whose DDR skill is pro.. can play 2 persons role at the same time.
So Huimin went to play DDR and we played Datona and basketball..
Eugene's score was 449 and mine was 123 omg! thrashed....
So aft tt play datona.. 4th out of 4 ppl playing -.- my car went crashed 3 times -.-
Aft tt went to eat some buffet.. forgot the name Huimin if u see tis pls tell me the name of it.
Alright it wasnt buffet.. jus some Set meal Which gives FREE flow of ice cream and Drinks.
i eat 3 cups and made 2 ice cream floats.. Woots was nice.. long nv eat float le..
Enjoyed myself today xD..

wierd ppl

2008-10-11T23:29:00.003+08:00

Deng: xxx has added u onto ur contact list
1.Accept tis invitation
2.block tis invitation selects 1

Let J = me and R= retard

J says: u r?
R: dunno (wtfox?)
J says: huh? u added me and u dunno who u r?
R: ppl ask me to add u de
J: who is ur fren?
R: aiya u dunno one la
J:how can ur fren noe me and i dunno her/him?
R: cos her fren give her de
J:who is ur fren's fren?
R:i dunno

above is the above conversation with retard. From here we can see that THERE EXISTS some retards who dunno wtfox they are doing.
Ppl, if u wanna add me, and if u are friendly, i dun mind
But do not add me and come tell me u dunno
1. who e fk u are?
2. Why e fk u add me?
3.Who e fk give u my email?
4.Who e fk give ur fren my email? and as no. of frens tends to infinity, shld i go and ask all?

Never mess with ppl u dunno, cos u might end up getting scolded like u nv did b4.

Sincerely pissed

Jerry'08

Survey

2008-10-11T22:43:00.004+08:00

2 days nv blogged xD

Got a survey. Answer truthfully xD

1. What's your zodiac?
Cancer
2. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Yes
3. Does your ex(s) still contact with you?
Yes or no i not really sure
4. Do you think you're a good bf/gf?
Ask me exes lol
5. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Who never makes mistakes?Its e choice to repent that deserves the 2nd chance
6. Have you ever liked anyone else's bf/gf?
Yes, but nv jio xD
7. Thinking of anyone right now?
Yea
8. What would you like to say to that person on your mind?
I miss you
9. Have you ever broken someone else heart?
I guess i did
10. Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts?
She shld know it
11. Do you prefer to be single or in a relationship?
There Exists pros and cons in both. So both is ok to me xP
12. How do you feel right now?
Bored
13. Have you told anyone you'd marry them?
Yes
14. Total contact in msn?
100+? siao who will go and count
15. How many online?
40?
16. Often chat with those online people?
they will auto chat wid me i guess. unless i am feeling down i dun initiate chats xD
17. How many groups you've created?
8 or 9
18. Prefer China or Malaysian?
No china pls.. too many prcs in my class -.-
19. What you gonna do on 12/10/08?
go out and enjoy myself xP

S-P-A-C-E

2008-10-09T22:17:00.003+08:00

Today the topic is about space.

What is space?

Definition 1.1 Space is defined to be the amount of invisible matter that exists between u n your partner. Commonly know as Freedom, It is known to cause destruction to relationships if taken away and too much of it makes relationships worse.

so too much of it causes destruction and so when it is too little.

Formula 1.2 how much to give space? let S(A) be defined as the amount of space to be given to a relationship.

so 1/S(A)=[3Love+2concern-5(unnecessary jealousy)]/time, where time not = 0

when time is more than the above, S(A) less than 1 = relationship decrease

When time is less than above, S(A) tends to infinity which relationship decrease too

so we have hence came up with a limit

that is Lim(x-->2)S(A)=3

3 times of space shld b a nice guage for any relationship.

Ok all of the above is jus bull shit i dunno wtf0x i am writing.

Stressed day ahead, with all the orhtogonal thingy going inside my head, my head is going orthogonal very soon. pronounciation: Or-Tho-ge-nal

If by washing hands means dun contact, i hav nth to say. I hav already stated very clearly tt i need space. I seriously hope that u can read tis. A relationship is not built on just spending time with U and only U. It is built on trust, love and concern and most imptly, space.

Its not i dun wanna acc u, its that i treat all my frens equally.

It isnt that spending time with u is not fun, its just that when ur frens visit, u hav to keep them company. Late replying ur sms by 5 mins doesnt equate i dun care.

Im not rich in anyway, What u desire to hav, mayb myself 10 yrs also nv get.

If im willing to buy for u, and if i say i will, wait for it. Rushing me to get it doesnt equate to i can get it immediately. I wouldnt run away jus cos of tis -.-

Lots of stuff up my mind, dunno what to say.

PS: Thx for the jokes, and if anyone wans the proof to the above equation, get it from me by leaving a msg xD

2008-10-09T13:39:00.002+08:00

Now at School.. Very sian.. Going for chinese soon.
This few days sleep till very late.. dunno whats up with me.. mayb i jus wanna sleep it all off.
Hmm.. Someone help me pls.. Stressed.. Shld i jus let it all out..
Dun wanna stress le..
Ppl say humans all prefer old things.. Is that really so?
Wonders..
Going off for lessons.. All remember to take your lunch and dinner yarhs? xD

Help me pls~

2008-10-07T21:24:00.002+08:00

Ok.. I've to seriously tink bout tis.
Big dilemma right now. Shld i or Shld i not?
Fall into a trap hole once, ppl help u up, say u kelian.
Fall into a trap hole e 2nd time, ppl say u stupid le- know got traphole still drop inside.
Fall into a trap hole e 3rd time, ppl say u retarded, go die better.
ppl say 1st time bite by snake, 10 year also scared of ropes.
If given a chance, how many will choose to go back to their exes?
How many ppl will adhere to a nonsensical promise?
If ur have the ans, pls write it on the Cbox pls.
Lots of homework today but just not in the mood to do it. mayb tml ba..
Almost fell asleep at calculus lecture. so boring and most of the "delta ebselon proof" i dun understand at all.
All i know is "There Exists" a chance such that Jerry will pass his exams with flying colours,
Where Flying colours is < and =" to">
Decision making mood~

2008-10-06T19:25:00.002+08:00

ppl. stop asking me bout the same qn.. u all know what i mean~
im equally confused myself
The qn keeps poping in and outta my mind--- Yes or no? Wrong or correct?
Shld i or Shld i not?
Love isnt bout explaining, its about trusting 1 another.
If one has to explain about every single thing, tt is not love, its forced love.
A min of uncare does not equate to a life of uncare.
We all need to do our own things too.
When love is sweet, it is, When its sour, its time to let go.
Can a fruit nv turn sour? no it cant, only when its preserved
If the fruit doesnt wan to b put into the fridge, aka doesnt trust the fridge,sooner or later it'll turn sour
If the fridge doesnt wan to tc of the fruit, sooner or later the fruit will b gone. Its a 2 way thing,
in mathematical terms, its the predicate IF AND ONLY IF.
aka. a fruit will not turn sour IF AND ONLY IF its stored n willing to b put into the fridge.

Would you be there?

2008-10-06T13:37:00.001+08:00

If I were blue
would you be there for me
And whisper in my ears that's okay
Would you stand by me
let me hold you tight
And say you love me one more time

If I feel good,would you slow dance with me
And touch my lips with tender love and care
Would you die for me,would you run with me
And never look back

Chorus:
Would you be there to love to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
to take my breath away...
Would you be there to love to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one,to take my breath away

Would you be there...if i am away
would you stil think of me
and wish that you could hold me now, (hold me now)
and would you die for me
would you run with me
all the way?
Would you be there to love to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one,to take my breath away...
Would you be there to save my soul tonight
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be there,to kiss my pain away
would u be there...

Would you be there to love to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one,to take my breath away...
Would you be there to save my soul tonight
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be there to
kiss my pain awaywould u be there..for me?

2008-10-05T20:39:00.002+08:00

Love is wierd, when it doesnt come, what u do also wun change e fact tt u r single.
When it comes, it sweeps u off ur feet, and hey! u are attached.
Been doing nth much today, only the stupid Ma1100 Hw.
When the time has come, what i've promise u will b true.
Shall go play viwawa.. boring sunday except for the gd news once i wake up.
Dynasty chess xD

2008-10-05T00:29:00.003+08:00

Finally back home.. took night rider home and freaking 190 came just after i scan the card on the NR3. FK waste $3.50 T.T
Anyway had fun
Today eat some random food, make me hav to eat hokkien mee at kopitiam just to be full ><
1st day after exams already so shiok, hope that everyday will be like tis from now on.. i dun wan EOY... freaking coming after 2nd week of nov.. someone save me pls xD
My bus pass gonna expire on 7oct anybody willing to pay the $52 for me ??
so poor tis month.. tink gonna start saving a bit..
Shall write till here.. tired~

2008-10-03T21:23:00.002+08:00

Finally, The exams are officially over.
Damn sad... where got ppl give limit with square roots. and i actually forgot my beloved double angle formula.
And fk the last qn.. i already read so many fk times then now give me so little info. WTH is F(0)
T.T
ok anyway, exams are over, over over over over~~
so tired during tis week, those who hav encouraged me Thx a lot^^
Can finally play play play..
Anybody wan me to play wid them jus giv me a msg ya xD

2008-10-01T23:38:00.003+08:00

Its getting crazy for me.. luckily got the inspiration to go out. Thx to HuiMin, SiRui, XiuHui and Joanna for acc me though your played maple while i tried to study.
Played badminton.. Realise i forgot how to smack le T.T
Though an emo morning but still gd in the evening. Anyone who can decipher my previous msg of the long string of chinese words i owe u a treat to dinner xD Clue is , There Exist a pattern such that the pattern can b deciphered. -.-
Getting late.. Everytime i almost reach home, sure will rain zz.
Saw bro play the dynasty chess on com.. very kawaii the chess pieces. Makes me inspirated sia lol. Shall blog till here, too much thoughts running through my mind like an express train

2008-10-01T10:57:00.004+08:00

感慨万端，失去了之后才知道要珍惜，是否太迟了？
钱真的那么重要吗？钱钱钱什么都是钱。
犹豫太多有时是个包袱。
爱真的有那么多事要考虑吗？
我他是神最爱西他真热体与文斯有时的应乎次沙
也破发很长鳍阿即赴意而爱扣色
湖固富农全你投罗企鹅日叁须的！
i also dunno wtf0x i am writing, whole night nv sleep. Yawning damn badly. bet i shall hav eye circles as big as a donut soon. Dun ask me y i cant sleep, cos i dunno myself.
esaelp eids ym ot nruter.
如果我的改变能带给你幸福，我情愿我能为你改变，也要带给你最大的快乐。

2008-09-30T22:20:00.002+08:00

Today went to Fish n Co. Had the most lousy dinner.. more than half wasnt ate lol.
I HATE FISH. well, things for today still not bad, but at least, i tink i can pass my MA 1100.
Tink hav to change my taste of food real fast. Someone's nagging already xP. k la later continue edit.

2008-09-29T23:11:00.002+08:00

First of all, Thx Huimin for wan to help me find the recipe/ advice xD
Thx April for her reprimand xP
今天真的很烦，不知为什么，拿着书本也读不下。看来明天的考试我是FAIL定了。
Care and concern isnt a very big thing, some desire and some dun.
But im sure i'll appreciate what is given to me, b it care/concern.
Learning to appreciate is something easy to learn, and even a baby, noes that if we give him sweets, he'll smile and eat happily.
I may not deserve the appreciation by giving a medal, but, do not treat me for granted as i aint.
I may b poor, nuts, or nth, but im sure im still human, and i deserve the minimum RESPECT.
Frenships may come and go, but im sure it aint as easy as say JJ jiu JJ.
If u seriously tink that frens who care for U are to b shunned by U, tell me.
I'll learn not to b kpo.
Im the type that treasure frenships, as even money cant buy true frenship.
think about it.

AHHHHHHHHHHH

2008-09-29T12:28:00.000+08:00

Very well done, now I start to wonder on my YI ZHI LI. Set alarm at8a.m, and actually woke up at FREAKING 12p.m. Sch starts at 3, meaning i have to go at 1.30p.m. Dunno what am i blogging for, but just too bored to do anything else except bath and go school. Tonight gonna do 1 sample paper b4 tue's exam.
Im sry i made u cry, It's the first in history though, but nevertheless im still Sry.
If love has to consider so many things, wouldnt it b too tiring?
Love is sweet, yet it is the creation of heartbreaking, though it creates bonds, if not nurtured correctly, end product will never b sweet, It'll jus b some smelly shyt concoction.
Gotta go prepare for school.. Tink i'll probably sleep in lecture today ZZZ

2008-09-28T21:24:00.000+08:00

Late at night is when i start to blog again. My internet jus crashed cos i let my rabbit out to play.
In the end it bite my wire, make my internet spoil -.- now hav to use my fang ke's internet access so ps.
Anyway, today was a boring day. eat, study n eat n study n jus watching tv. managed to do some assignments though not all i know how to do.
Special thx to miki for try to help me complete my chinese assignment xD
though her han yu pin yin also not as gd
Going to b night time le, recess week machiam like any other normal week sia, except that i can wake up later than usual.
Missed mash potato with quil(dunno how to spell) egg. who hav the recipe pls teach me k? ^^
心里一直很沉重，是我顾虑太多了吗？
starting to worry bout my mid yr exams, the sample paper dunno how to do sia -.-
Hopefully, can pass, as long can pass, already thx heaven thx earth le.
Shld i or Shld i not? Irritating.. Hmmm..

2008-09-27T22:06:00.000+08:00

When things seem to go ur way, its often the notice that u hav reached the end of your luck.
Sometimes, a few sentences may change the way ppl tink, and react.
The impact of the words might seem low, but to others, it might be a nuclear warhead.
Tinking b4 speaking sounds easy, but when doing it, it often is hard.
Words dun actually hurt u physically, but the emotional hurt is often more unbearing compared to a nuclear warhead.
Guess i hav been emo enough, Thx to WenYan and april who's been so nice to hear me out.
I still hav some nice frens eh?
anyway, i just hope that i could do sth for u, though what i do might seem minute, but at least, it eases my guilt.

My msn fking crashed 5 times at least when i try to play a file through msn. lousy com i muz say.

Those whom i ignored today, im sry, but read whats on my nick b4 u ask me anything.

April, When's ur skirt day again xP

Thx again to my frens who've been beside me when i was emo, but again, i was emo all e time xD

Shall blog till here today. Hope i still hav mood for my exam next week to study tml. really hav no mood at all.

apologize

2008-09-27T11:59:00.000+08:00

APRIL 正式 APOLOGIZE for her mistakes...

all posts GONE with wind.

OKAY OKAY. Look at it in this way..

旧的不去，新的不来咯~

2008-09-27T11:22:00.000+08:00

Same Old Brand New YouWritten by Eric Foster White/B Adams/C Ingebrigsten/M Read
I can still remember the time
You were there when I needed to hold you, feel you
Every time I ask you to find a new way
You lie a new way
Is it gone, gone, gone, gone, gone
You've said you'd changed, but I'm afraid
It's something I won't live to see
It seems so strange
That sometimes fateCan appear so real and yetTurn out to be a fantasy
Same old line, one more time
Say you're gonna be, there for meSay you'll change, change your waysNever gonna keep your promises
Same old game (you know it doesn't turn me on)
Brand new day (you're singing that same old song)
No more lies (if you don't wanna find me gone,Gone, gone, gone, gone)
Another night, another day
What can I say
You're still the same old brand new you
You break your promises in twoWhat can I do
When you're the same old brand new you

Because of you, I guess we're through (through)
Is this the way it has to be
I've been a fool (I've been a fool)
A fool for you (a fool for you)
But I've got better things to do thanLet you walk all over me
Same old line, one more time
Say you're gonna be, there for me
Say you'll change, change your ways
Never gonna keep your promises
Same old game (you know it doesn't turn me on)
Brand new day (you're singing that same old song)
No more lies (if you don't wanna find me gone,Gone, gone, gone, gone)
Another night, another dayWhat can I say
You're still the same old brand new you
You break your promises in twoWhat can I do
When you're the same old brand new you
I can still remember the time
You were there when I needed to hold you, feel you
Every time I ask you to find a new way
You lie a new wayIs it gone, gone, gone, gone, gone
Same old line, one more time
Say you're gonna be, there for me
Say you'll change, change your ways
Never gonna keep your promises
Same old game (you know it doesn't turn me on)
Brand new day (you're singing that same old song)
No more lies (if you don't wanna find me gone,Gone, gone, gone, gone)
Another night, another day
What can I say
You're still the same old brand new you
You break your promises in twoWhat can I do
When you're the same old brand new you

Nv knew 2 sentences can change a person's life. Will b more careful in the future. Really wanna apologise for what i did. Hope what is done, can b rectified, at least, to ease my guilt a little. strictly no comments allowed for tis. Thanks a lot.